"depends on fate"

the word i use to say

the word i say to let myself get up

what goes around comes around

the word which is always appear around me

i never look down on it

it's already one year and i'm good now

sometime will think of it but it's okay

cause i got my life now

2 is better than 1

it maybe true and it maybe false

it's depends on how you look at it

i take it as nothing

either 1 or 2

i'm still ME

reality do change people right ? the world is always cruel

我真的是自作自受, 自己玩自己的就好啦

干嘛浪费力气浪费时间去等一些人

第一次我等但如果真的来不及可以说一声

东西就不能等明天买吗?

就这么急吗?

第二次我迟到是我的错

但多等两下会死吗?

玩有比同伴的存在重要吗?

我承认我很可怕

但你们让我太失望了

到了下一站,我已经先进去找位置了不得

你们全部 !!! 情愿坐得离我远也不想坐跟我

这我没话说..你们要继续但抱歉我不想

我不想一个人坐在那里当笨蛋 !!

我回房间你们慢慢玩

我不想坐在那里发脾气

更好玩的是你们一句对不起也不会说

到了今天,我和你们去走走

我脸色虽然不好但我自认我还会和你们说说话

但我发现我和你们就想个陌生人

所以我情愿走也不想当个笨蛋

我真的很气很气

气得我一句话都不想说

你们聊天不参没关系

不过我真的很气你们

也许一开始我应该坚持我的信念

不去相信任何人

尽量不要和人熟

it's just make me look like a fool when i'm with yours

this is not the first time i feel so

am i look happy in that picture ??

yes, i am..but now i'm emo-ing

i feel i'm too smart for everything

i can settle accident and all those travel planning

sometime i just wish i'm the stupid one

get protect by tons of people

but last time i wish to be the strong one..

after being a strong one that's me now..

i feel pointless, shoulder-less, bbf-less

lost more and more care

lost more and more love

been thinking alot in the bathroom

a nice place for us to think without any noice

how i wish i'm a small little one

how i wish i never been through all the hard one

one of the reason i become now

it's because i've been through all the step that not everyone been before

like my classmate said

i look mature

even older than the one who older in class

i take things serious

if i didn't do so i don't know when i will fall into problem again

i'm independent

it's because no one will going to help out when problem come

it's all about me

face the world alone

still hanging around with the friends but who really knows me

even the one i take as my best friend she didn't know all

i don't want to burden anyone

what's this about ??

to grow me up, train me, let me know the truth earlier

yes, i do know why people now is so complicated

the people i mix with is complicated

i can't denied it

if the people have only the peaceful mind

then the world won't have war and complicated cases around

what i want to spread out in this post ??

just to realise my emo

random shoot in class

this day are tired..

next week will be week 8 d..have to pass up all assignment though

photography not yet take the photo, do the work book

drawing sketches not yet done

2D sketch book not yet done

computer class not yet done..

arghh..so many thing to be done in just a few days..

going to die soon..

by the way, just a short update since i long time didn't update my blog d..

must let the reader know what i'm busy up this few weeks..

oh ya..i've resign my job d..so i'll have more time for my work..

since i still a baby you send me to baby sister there for six years
i only get home on friday,saturday and sunday back to baby sister there
i'm going to standard one now..you pick me up from baby sister there and send me to grandparents there..
same ! i only get home on friday, saturday and sunday back to grandparent there..
standard three, grandparents past away and i get home but i stay with maid..
you was busy on work since i born, i know you try to give us a better life
but the thing i want is you would really understand me and know what i'm thinking
i rather you stay with me everyday and have a poor life..
you scolded me today, and i was crying when you scolding
i bet you don't even know what am i crying for..
you said i always get home late when out with friends
you said because of that i will sleep until very late on the next day
you said i just like my 2nd brother
you said i lazy to done all those small little stuff
you said why i like this and that
but have you realise i've change to someone else
have you realise my mind change
have you realise my thinking is changing
i work and i study
because i don't want to get too free
because you'll say everyday me also eat and sleep only
but when i start work you said why have to be so late
since i start working i have less time for my friend
when i go out until late you'll ask why everytime you have to go out until so late
but did you notice the day you said i back home late is out with friend not work
you thought work is like the day i go out with friend
i can't stop crying when i think of those shit..
relise me please~ try to stand on my site and think for me
i do think for you so i never complaint my tiredness



ps: mom..i know you won't read this.but this is the way i cool myself down..this is all for you..i know sister will be the proundest and best thing in your life..sister is way more better then me..but i'm not that worst you think, i will prove to you one day that you'll be proud that i experiece all this before..

woohoo

sorry reader..it's such a long time i didn't update my blog you know, like i mention on my last post, i get some disease called "lazyness".. and above is random shot when i was in kl..with my friend as well..oh ya !! i'd resign from Segafrado@gurney and move to 75 celcius gurney, pay higher and fix my time..not yet open but opening soon in this wednesday or thursday and the grand opening will be held on this saturday do come to the outlet if you are free and ask your friend to come over also..

this sentence going to be such a emo post..just something happened recently..i lost my money in kl..some friend are scolding after drunk *i forgive since that fella is drunk* but i still dislike this kind of attitude..do feel lonely sometimes, try to fill the loneliness but i got a better way to go, work and study busy=won't think so much..^^

last saturday went to club as well with few friends..meet some old friend inside and ex schoolmate and current schoolmate also..but the feeling is different with last time cause i don't get any form or "high" from the music..maybe i've to kl club and there is more happening so it's different..one thing i suprise was the F.A.M.E.'s dj is currently spin in M.O.I.S.

what going to now ??..it's 3.21am , going to sleep now..my term break is off class is on so have to go get some sleep and go to college..it's time for me to off..bye reader !! *post one of the funny picture for you to see*

what so funny about it is i was talking on the phone and keep kacau me to take picture..before taking this picture i was on phone too and this guy stole my phone and off it, mean right ??..but he is a nice guy..lol..

kek lok si photoshoot

such a long update since my last post..

and here i'm reader..post up something new recently..

above is all the photo i took with alpha300 *borrow from my friend, thanks chris*

except the picture with my friend..

we just try and see whether can cam-whore with such big camera or not..

hahaha..

we went there on last tuesday and that's is the first time i take picture until sweat..

omg !! i don't know want took a picture is such suffering

*except the people who using digital camera*

but at least i'm happy with the result cause i don't know that i can took such good picture..

hahaha..

and recently i make a experiment on myself..i change my fringe into the centre line..

picture may look good but i don't think real life did a good change..

that's all for today i think..

lazy to blog more d..

anything happen will let your know..

night reader !! is 3.19am now and tomorrow i still have class

b'day

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spot the guy at behind there

their b'day have past

coming soon

hello !! hello !!

lazy to blog recently so sorry for no new post

above is all the picture i took on thursday

we were celebrating four people's birthday

two of them was past and another two is coming soon

anyway, we didn't tell them that we going to celebrate their birthday

we just ask whole class to redbox have fun

when the cake arrive they only know we are actually celebrating their birthday

we have seventeen people that day so we got the big room

ROOM no.9

we having alot of fun that day

although i can't cover the cake price

but i still having alot of fun that day

and i think that's all for that day.. xp

and recently i don't know why i feel so desparate for movie

any movie except horror movie

and i can't wait for sunday

meet up with ANNE and that stupid idiot ERIN LIM

...lol...

to all reader

i won't update my blog that often d...

cause i get a syndrome from ANNE STEPHANIE PETERSON

that syndrome called ' lazyness ' *only for blog*

...lol...

nothing much to say about my recent life

just i glad that i have done my assignment on week 3

even though the assignment only can pass up on week 5

hahahahahahaha..

and the only thing i don't like n my college life

is i have to attend the LAN subject

which mean i have to attend Moral and Sejarah !!

the only lucky thing is i get credit on my malay so i don't need to attend malay

since Sejarah not yet start i still can rest more

but Moral already start and already have document need to pass up

all it need is team work..

but i still love my college life for now..i think..

got to stop here..

bye reader !!

current mood : normal

current song : don't trust me -3OH!3

shoulder pls

it was a bad day last night
went out with a nice mood but back home with emo
treat me nicer than last time
but still the same like to disturb me
try to ask me stay by
and i reject
i know it will be a better choice for us
i use such long time to put down
but only one day you want get me back
it's impossible !!
just like the song 'shattered glass' lyric
when you broke us apart just like shattered glass
we have no chance to get back
hurt is enough
no more on it
and i promise myself won't let myself get hurt anymore
i want to protect myself
even though i have to be alone to face anything
or feel lonely..
at least it's better than hurt
hurt is pain, pain need cure
where is the cure ??
myself and time
i cure myself and you have no chance to let me fall again
when the time we went out i know i have no feeling d..
and my answer will still be the same
like you told me last time
friendship should be more suitable for us..
i know you try last night but
i just don't expect you have nothing to say
the only thing i want do for myself is
stay away from hurt..
concentrate more on my study..
i believe that i have bright future..
won't let anything stop me

a thursday n friday

thursday as usual went to college early in the morning
raining in the morning so the traffic is more jam compare to normal
so it also mean i'm late to class
but luckily i'm not the one who late
after class went to eat lunch with classmate
then went to my friend's hostel to wait my another friend finish class
after that, me and my friend head to his house
than chill at there about few hours
then head to Crepe..that's my favorite western food restaurant
so i having my dinner at there with my friend
after that i drop her back to her hostel and i back my home
that's my thursday

FRIDAY
that's my friday look..
going to college as usual
having drawing class today
my drawing is just okay
hahaha..
after class same went to lunch with my classmate
than back home
hahaha...
sleep for whole noon because my class finish at 12.30pm
then night time help my aunt fetch my cousin back from tuition
that's my friday

lazy update blog syndrome

the first day i drive to college

okay..


i have been stop blogging for about 4 days


now i hv a few story to talk about my recent life


okay..start now..


after i get my licence


i become a dangerous driver


because the day i pass my test


then at night i drive out


next day, i drive out too without licence on noon


night i got my licence..


thanks to keeve & egg help me take it


then saturday and sunday just like normal


attend my class but different is i drive myself there





monday, the day my college start


i not really know to go Equater without making any u-turn after upr


so my friend drive to my house first


then i follow his car until there


really have to thanks him alot..


thanks chris..


then after go in to college


new intake have to go lecturer hall


wait them to separate all of us in 5 classes


unfortunely, i been sent to last class





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after that head to amoy lane


because my first class is at amoy lane


the class which is about photography and computer


will be at amoy lane


the next day whivh means today


i have photography class so i have to go to amoy lane


i don't know how to go there also..


so chris bring me there again


luckily i have my own transport


if not it will be so fed up for me to go here and there





last time i use to be so excited on college life


but now i don't think i will be excited anymore


every morning when i wake up i have to think what to wear


i feel that my wardrobe is out of cloth


i think i have to find a day to shop for more cloth d





okay..


i'm going to stop here..


tomorrow i have in the morning


and i have to go myself tomorrow morning..


good night all !


have to go bed now..

is a pass day's

today I went take my car test
so I can get P licence
and yes ! I pass all the test
I can officially drive now..
hahaha..

well, first I have thanks to :
my mom
my sister
Zoey
Edwin
Uncle Tan
Aunty

they help me alot in this few months
and sorry to Edwin
cause I have scared u last night

that's all for today
nothing more special.
thanks for reading and sorry for no picture

just a normal Sunday

yesterday was Sunday
I skip my class and back to my grandpa house
the main reason I back there was to drive my car back
hehe..
after reaches there
chilled for a while then back to penang with my mom
leave my dad there..hehe
went to Gurney to do some stuff
and then bought some food back home

yes, me and my mom bought the BIG APPLE DONUT

haha..most of them is mine flavour..^^

I think that's all for today..

going to drive my car to servise later

bye bye

EmO eMo EmO

today is White Valentine's Day
as usual I not reli like to celebrate this kind of date
as I know White Valentine's Day is a day to reply people gift
this what I know
and honestly I have no one to reply with
for me is just a normal day
because I'm still a single young lady
okay..move to next topic now..
got class today
I have to go although I don't feel like going
sleepy in class
after class went to pet shop bought my hamster's food
back home start online
have my dinner and do whatever I want
I'm going to stay at home whole night
don't feel like going out
feel so emotional too
nothing more to talk about today
and I broke my record
I just used about 10 minute to finish a post
impressive !!

just a sudden

is 12.57am now
and I'm start doing my blog
just a sudden
my mind come out some memory about my past
when I back in front my laptop
I heard the song ' If I were a boy-Beyonce'
I feel want to cry
seriously I dono why
even now I'm still holding my tears
I thought I already forget my past
and having a new life now
that is what i think
because I never cry about all that
since i promise to myself on November
I still wonder
why my mood so down ?
is it something going to happen ?
please I don't like this kind of mood
I like happy, I like hyper
I'm not this kind of person who always staying sad
I don't want be that kind of people too..
I'm going to start my study soon
I suppose be very happy
cause I'm going to start a new life
meet new friends
but why ? why ? why ?
I hate myself like this
I hate it so much
why I will be like this ?
and today I have no patient to anyone also
I have enough sleep today
but why ?
can someone cheer me up ?
I have no confidence to anyone
even myself
I kinda lost now
where I suppose to go now ?
what I suppose to think now ?
I already set my future
I set my mind to what I'm going to do in future
but why tonight I suddenly become like this ?
I have so many question marks in my mind ?
I'm suffering now..
I hate it..
I really hate it !!!!

woke up on 7.30am
went to have DIM SUM as breakfast with Zoey & Celicia
after that drop Celicia to work
then Zoey drop me to my school to get mine result
I didn't feel the fear and all that
I like some kind of cold blood people
student is coming one by one
the result is start giving to student
so I also quite there to get my result
I won't say how's my result here as I very disappoined on it

after i get my result
Zoey come and fetch me
and we went to have a drink first
after that we head to Disted college to get some information
then head to Equator..
I went to there to ask the information of Interior Design
and I register there too
so means I'm going to study there..
my class will start on 23rd March
means next next week..
OMG !! I have to start prepare my study mood now..
Haiz.. what to do wor..
since now is economy crisis time
and I don't think airline is going to hire people
so I just set my mind like last time i have planned
Interior Design..my future career..
after Equator we head to do some bank stuff
then to Gurney chill
till 7 something we chao d..
back to home
I'm too tired for today
so went I home
I start sleep on 8 something
after 8 hours i woke up
which means i woke up on 3.20am
i can't sleep anymore
I online and reply some message on my phone

I think thats all for today
nothing interes to talk about...
have to wake potato up on 12 noon later..
and now is 6.22am
I've been stay awake since I woke up just now

no picture for today because i didn't take any picture

current mood : bitter-sweet

current song :like me-girlicious

Is 1.28am now..

feel like update something i didn't update today..

just want t upload my L here

it is because finally i get it back

hahaha

i know my picture is not pretty enough but at least it's still look good

and i didn't show out my dumb dumb face also..haha..

tomorrow result is coming out d..

why i don't have such nervous feeling ??

is it I too relax d..or i just take it nothing ??

confuse ? wonder ? how's the result ?

whatever ! since result coming out tomorrow

so just take a look and then just leave it la..

look like I'm not going to study in college d right ?

I'm not..I plan to study Interior Design or just go interview for cabin crew

with such worst result..LOL

what a girl I am..haha..

whatever la..just leave it and take what "they" give

we pray for now also no use cause we already take the exam

I think it's time for me stop

since I have no topic to talk about today anymore..

if got new topic I will post up here..

BYE BYE !!

current song : elevator-timberland

current mood : normal

today ??
ntg to talk about also..
wake up on 9am to wake up Mr.Potata
after wake him up i back to sleep again
until 2.30pm i wake up and watch tv
done all stuff should be done
settle down myself in front my favorite laptop
do whatever I wan..
til just now..12am, my friend called me and ask
do u wan to hang out and learn ur driving skill
of course i said yes
so, i went out and drive
from tanjung bunga Caltex to TARC
TARC to UPR to Esplaned to Queensbay to Jelutong
to tanjung bunga Caltex to my home..
the longest journey i had drive..
what a good expirience...LOL

that is all for today
no picture today


tomorrow pre-test le..
so scare i cant pass..
thursday is the day im going to hell..
+.+

current mood : normal

current song : when I'm gone

thinking : to get a good guy ?? car licence

2day is Monday and yesterday is Sunday

n yes, my mom bought me a Toshiba laptop

v a deal is i hv to work for her n stay at home as much as i can

is okay for me so i just accept it..^^

last Wednesday i went to Genting Highlands

ntg much to talk about as most of the ppl went before

i back on Friday

Saturday i gt class nid to attend

so stay at home after that

Sunday, i suppose gt class on that day

but it has been cancelled cause of my teacher accident

i dono what reli happen cause no one know..

plan to go Gurney v mom after class

but since it alredi been cancelled so just go Gurney earlier

we reach thr take some bag to get fix

having lunch at Winter Warmer

move to Country Ride to c whether mom's bag is ready or not yet

finally, we can move to the House of Notebook..

my laptop is bought at thr..the girl name hui fen gave me a gd service

after bought it..i hv to leave my laptop thr bout 2 hours

cause they need to help me setup my laptop..

in that time we went for a little shopping

we go in parkson to take a look

suddenly my mom saw smtg attractive

tat is GUESS handbag..she love it so much

i know it cause that day b4 we go out

she said, " I don wan to buy any bag anymore, since i have so much bag. "

she only break her promise when she reli lik it

what i get on that day is...Famous Amos cookies & Toshiba laptop

yeepee..teehees

today ? Monday..i wake up early in the morning

get ready to go learn driving..

this Wednesday goin to have my pre-test

and if pass next Thursday go for car test d

hope i can pass asap la..

i wan drive..i don wan let ppl fetch..

my nike fully white jacket




just bought it 2day
cuz i lost my jacket few days ago
n im goin genting soon so i nid a jacket urgently
LOL

i woke up late 2day n went to learn car
stil working to get my P
kinda love driving
haha..
uncle say i can take test on 19th if i okay
den i told uncle
i sure can..hehe
after this went to my mom's office
cuz wan go shopping to get my Nike jacket ma..
hehe..
n tats hw i get my nike jacket lo

after tat back home
ntg to do
take a bath den settle down in front tv
yup, i hv skip my dinner
for on diet..hehe..
i cant on9 cuz my sis was using it
den i stil cant get my laptop cuz of sum financial problem
so i just wait..wait n wait n wait..
finally is my turn..
i been using pc since 11pm til nw 3.25am
i sleep on day n i awake on nite
im a vampire..hahaha...
jkjk

ntg to more to talk about 2day
and i tink im goin stay awake til morning d..
reli cant sleep..

current mood : happy (cuz i get new jacket )
current song : i din hear any song since i on9
thinking of : genting trip, ex-classmate, future

teehees..^^..so happy write now..
hope everyday will be like today
PEACE !!

LAZY ??

this is ME
but it doesn't look like me
because that is picture ma
LOL..okay, i know is not funny..

Today is sunday
i skip my class n went to Queensbay with my mom n sister
first we get there and we are fucking hungry
so we decide to find somewhere to fill our stomach
and so we went Nippon Yataimura to have our lunch
hmmmmmmm...TASTY..hahahaha

and this is my sister
she don't know that i took her picture
if she know i post here
sure kena d..hahaa

and finally,
CANTON-i is opening in penang..^^
it's located in Queensbay Mall, ground floor
never try before but i think the food will not bad la.
^^

ps : feel wan update my blog everyday but just dono wat to post bout..

listening to the song from http://www.euphoria.com.my/
no nid to download alredi can hear
techno, house, electro, hip hop & open format
listen watever u lik..

~EMPTY~

1st, my mind is empty nw..
dono wan to post wat on my blog
boring this day
nth to do
stay at home
walk here n there

tats my life nw..
2 more weeks to get my result
mean goin to hell 2 more weeks..
+.+
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i wonder how guy goes on v their life lik ntg happen
gal go so tough but guys not
mayb sum wil not but most of d guy is just take it ntg
i cant imagine if im a guy wat wil i b
sumtime i just hate d guy who hurt me
who promise a lot to me
after break up it just ntg
n they wil nvr done wat they promise
so GUY
" pls don simply promise to gal
if u wan to pls do it !! "

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goin to KL 2moro..
again
...LOL...
see u guys soon..
hehe..


ps: my lovely ex-schoolmate..miss ur alot..
sori for cant make it to d bbq last sun..

i went to kl on last thu..
just go for 1 day..
go for fun
i went to sunway pyramid for my dinner
n meet up my friends darry..
he from pg but currently work thr..
den we move to Euphoria by MOS
thr nice n i lik it so much..

at sunway sushi king

ntg much to talk bout..
just like it.
den we back to pg on fri..

'around the world'
..i like it..

A Lot To Say..^^

pink for me..blue for Zoey

start from the day i went for my car theory..
before i go for my theory
i back to my high school to find my class teacher be my reference
n yes Pn.Chan be my reference
when i back school i feel a lot of weird staring at me
but i just leave it
n get my reference then get out from there
after that i went to prangin n brought my favorite movie series
"幸福的抉择"



after that i go for theory
it is at bayan lepas there
i can see many aeroplane prepare to landing there..
after it i back home n get start v my favorite movie series !!
i take 2 night to finish it
hehe ^^
after watched half i like ntg to do
so i go practice my french twist
n yet i get a beautiful french twist..^^



saturday i go for my class as usual
but this time i tide up a french twist
which i practiced last nite
after class i went McD to fill my hungry stomach
then back home..
when i put down my hair
n i get a curly n i like it sooo muchie..
i ask my mom, sis n my maid
'do i look v curly hair?'
my mom said ' arghh..dono..'
my sis just gave me a smile
my maid said ' har, cantik cantik !! '
then i ask my mom can go perm to curly like this??
she said 'no..look too old for you'

pretty..??

sunday, no class..
i went to gurney v Zoey then meet up my family
my mom is choosing her b'day present
at "Diamond & Platinum"
paid by dad..^^

mon..ntg to do..
just stay at home all day
watch tv n eat..

tue..go for my car practical on morning
so i can get my L licence..
then back home..
go do my manicure n Mickey get her pedicure
i get APPLE RED on my finger..^^




then go buy bus ticket
because going KL on thu..
don't too miss me ya..
then go find my mom at her office
cause wan go for a little shopping..
finally i get my favorite GELATTISIMO ice-cream & secret recipe's cake

tats all..^^

LOVE YOUR ALL THE TIME !!

Just a Day

yesterday i wake up at 9.20am

den i asked my mom to buy 'chi cheong fun' for me
she told go buy myself
n of cuz i lazy den iwent sleep again.
until 3.30pm..i realise i almost for my hair cut
but finally i stil can catch it up..juz a little cut..^^

den when i on d way home
my fren ask me whether wan watch RED CLIFF II 2nite??
den i juz say yes cuz i din watch 1st episod n he told tat he wil tel me d story
den i juz yes..
for me tat movie is nice..hehe
b4 da movie we went sunrise McD n buy ais-cream to eat
den after da movie, we went caltex McD to find his fren..^^


look happy??..hehe..yes, i am

2day..i wake up at 3pm n make a appointment to do my medicure.
i book 4.30pm
after medicure i went home..
n my fren saw me crossing d road n yet he called me
so nite we went to hv our dinner..
n nw im home..waiting for my belated b'day present..^^
but suddenly me sis scream n ask ofr my maid
i went n take a look wats goin on
my sis scream for a beauty fly
i'll show here

isn't it pretty??
tats all for 2day..^^

Finally..lol

go out early in the morning
is the thing i didn't do since few month ago
and i almost forget how morning looks like
cause i almost everyday sleep till 2 or 3pm only wake up

this is the morning look

1st - since i get home early in the morning
means 4am i wrote my blog and do some surfing until 6am
den i went study on my undang
suddenly i feel i have not enough time to study it
until the 7.45am i go out n wait the bus
before i go out a take a cup of nescafe to let myself stay awake
its work
then..i reached the stop and walk to the shop
wait for auntie to fetch us to the place
i wait her about 1 hour
so i decided to use the time to continue my undang study
until boring i take some lame picture

levi's & converse

converse my favorite..^^

i like this one..XD




then we head to the test there and i so nervous
until they called my name and ask me to write down my name
after i finish it they ask me to go in and take the test
i like OMG!! i don't have any preparation at all...f*ck..
okay then..i still get in there and take the test
after that i recheck it and i have about 13 question not sure
i feel that im going to fail this time too
i wait till the time runs out i only go out
usually i can see my result after the test but not this time
so i go out and wait for my result with a scaring out there
result printed out and
I PASS IT !!!



oh yea..hahaha
i message my friend and told them this good news..
hehe..
this friday im going to hear my theory
i wan get my licence as fast as possible..

until now i only realise that i didn't sleep for whole day d.
although i got take 10 minit rest..
but is okay..cause i get a pass on undang test
the sacrify is okay..hehe..

THANKS FOR VIEWING..^^
PEACE..\/