我真的是自作自受, 自己玩自己的就好啦

干嘛浪费力气浪费时间去等一些人

第一次我等但如果真的来不及可以说一声

东西就不能等明天买吗?

就这么急吗?

第二次我迟到是我的错

但多等两下会死吗?

玩有比同伴的存在重要吗?

我承认我很可怕

但你们让我太失望了

到了下一站,我已经先进去找位置了不得

你们全部 !!! 情愿坐得离我远也不想坐跟我

这我没话说..你们要继续但抱歉我不想

我不想一个人坐在那里当笨蛋 !!

我回房间你们慢慢玩

我不想坐在那里发脾气

更好玩的是你们一句对不起也不会说

到了今天,我和你们去走走

我脸色虽然不好但我自认我还会和你们说说话

但我发现我和你们就想个陌生人

所以我情愿走也不想当个笨蛋

我真的很气很气

气得我一句话都不想说

你们聊天不参没关系

不过我真的很气你们

也许一开始我应该坚持我的信念

不去相信任何人

尽量不要和人熟

it's just make me look like a fool when i'm with yours

this is not the first time i feel so

am i look happy in that picture ??

yes, i am..but now i'm emo-ing

i feel i'm too smart for everything

i can settle accident and all those travel planning

sometime i just wish i'm the stupid one

get protect by tons of people

but last time i wish to be the strong one..

after being a strong one that's me now..

i feel pointless, shoulder-less, bbf-less

lost more and more care

lost more and more love

been thinking alot in the bathroom

a nice place for us to think without any noice

how i wish i'm a small little one

how i wish i never been through all the hard one

one of the reason i become now

it's because i've been through all the step that not everyone been before

like my classmate said

i look mature

even older than the one who older in class

i take things serious

if i didn't do so i don't know when i will fall into problem again

i'm independent

it's because no one will going to help out when problem come

it's all about me

face the world alone

still hanging around with the friends but who really knows me

even the one i take as my best friend she didn't know all

i don't want to burden anyone

what's this about ??

to grow me up, train me, let me know the truth earlier

yes, i do know why people now is so complicated

the people i mix with is complicated

i can't denied it

if the people have only the peaceful mind

then the world won't have war and complicated cases around

what i want to spread out in this post ??

just to realise my emo

random shoot in class

this day are tired..

next week will be week 8 d..have to pass up all assignment though

photography not yet take the photo, do the work book

drawing sketches not yet done

2D sketch book not yet done

computer class not yet done..

arghh..so many thing to be done in just a few days..

going to die soon..

by the way, just a short update since i long time didn't update my blog d..

must let the reader know what i'm busy up this few weeks..

oh ya..i've resign my job d..so i'll have more time for my work..

since i still a baby you send me to baby sister there for six years
i only get home on friday,saturday and sunday back to baby sister there
i'm going to standard one now..you pick me up from baby sister there and send me to grandparents there..
same ! i only get home on friday, saturday and sunday back to grandparent there..
standard three, grandparents past away and i get home but i stay with maid..
you was busy on work since i born, i know you try to give us a better life
but the thing i want is you would really understand me and know what i'm thinking
i rather you stay with me everyday and have a poor life..
you scolded me today, and i was crying when you scolding
i bet you don't even know what am i crying for..
you said i always get home late when out with friends
you said because of that i will sleep until very late on the next day
you said i just like my 2nd brother
you said i lazy to done all those small little stuff
you said why i like this and that
but have you realise i've change to someone else
have you realise my mind change
have you realise my thinking is changing
i work and i study
because i don't want to get too free
because you'll say everyday me also eat and sleep only
but when i start work you said why have to be so late
since i start working i have less time for my friend
when i go out until late you'll ask why everytime you have to go out until so late
but did you notice the day you said i back home late is out with friend not work
you thought work is like the day i go out with friend
i can't stop crying when i think of those shit..
relise me please~ try to stand on my site and think for me
i do think for you so i never complaint my tiredness



ps: mom..i know you won't read this.but this is the way i cool myself down..this is all for you..i know sister will be the proundest and best thing in your life..sister is way more better then me..but i'm not that worst you think, i will prove to you one day that you'll be proud that i experiece all this before..

woohoo

sorry reader..it's such a long time i didn't update my blog you know, like i mention on my last post, i get some disease called "lazyness".. and above is random shot when i was in kl..with my friend as well..oh ya !! i'd resign from Segafrado@gurney and move to 75 celcius gurney, pay higher and fix my time..not yet open but opening soon in this wednesday or thursday and the grand opening will be held on this saturday do come to the outlet if you are free and ask your friend to come over also..

this sentence going to be such a emo post..just something happened recently..i lost my money in kl..some friend are scolding after drunk *i forgive since that fella is drunk* but i still dislike this kind of attitude..do feel lonely sometimes, try to fill the loneliness but i got a better way to go, work and study busy=won't think so much..^^

last saturday went to club as well with few friends..meet some old friend inside and ex schoolmate and current schoolmate also..but the feeling is different with last time cause i don't get any form or "high" from the music..maybe i've to kl club and there is more happening so it's different..one thing i suprise was the F.A.M.E.'s dj is currently spin in M.O.I.S.

what going to now ??..it's 3.21am , going to sleep now..my term break is off class is on so have to go get some sleep and go to college..it's time for me to off..bye reader !! *post one of the funny picture for you to see*

what so funny about it is i was talking on the phone and keep kacau me to take picture..before taking this picture i was on phone too and this guy stole my phone and off it, mean right ??..but he is a nice guy..lol..

kek lok si photoshoot

such a long update since my last post..

and here i'm reader..post up something new recently..

above is all the photo i took with alpha300 *borrow from my friend, thanks chris*

except the picture with my friend..

we just try and see whether can cam-whore with such big camera or not..

hahaha..

we went there on last tuesday and that's is the first time i take picture until sweat..

omg !! i don't know want took a picture is such suffering

*except the people who using digital camera*

but at least i'm happy with the result cause i don't know that i can took such good picture..

hahaha..

and recently i make a experiment on myself..i change my fringe into the centre line..

picture may look good but i don't think real life did a good change..

that's all for today i think..

lazy to blog more d..

anything happen will let your know..

night reader !! is 3.19am now and tomorrow i still have class

b'day

CS1E (093)

spot the guy at behind there

their b'day have past

coming soon

hello !! hello !!

lazy to blog recently so sorry for no new post

above is all the picture i took on thursday

we were celebrating four people's birthday

two of them was past and another two is coming soon

anyway, we didn't tell them that we going to celebrate their birthday

we just ask whole class to redbox have fun

when the cake arrive they only know we are actually celebrating their birthday

we have seventeen people that day so we got the big room

ROOM no.9

we having alot of fun that day

although i can't cover the cake price

but i still having alot of fun that day

and i think that's all for that day.. xp

and recently i don't know why i feel so desparate for movie

any movie except horror movie

and i can't wait for sunday

meet up with ANNE and that stupid idiot ERIN LIM

...lol...

to all reader

i won't update my blog that often d...

cause i get a syndrome from ANNE STEPHANIE PETERSON

that syndrome called ' lazyness ' *only for blog*

...lol...

nothing much to say about my recent life

just i glad that i have done my assignment on week 3

even though the assignment only can pass up on week 5

hahahahahahaha..

and the only thing i don't like n my college life

is i have to attend the LAN subject

which mean i have to attend Moral and Sejarah !!

the only lucky thing is i get credit on my malay so i don't need to attend malay

since Sejarah not yet start i still can rest more

but Moral already start and already have document need to pass up

all it need is team work..

but i still love my college life for now..i think..

got to stop here..

bye reader !!

current mood : normal

current song : don't trust me -3OH!3